Tag: Mental Illness

It Doesn’t Have to Be This Hard

I am returning to blogging (hopefully on a regular basis) after an exhausting semester. Five days a week, I did the following:

  • woke up and walked to the bus stop
  • sat for hours in classrooms where the lights were too bright and I had to interact with people
  • did intellectual work that added to my mental exhaustion from social interaction and an overstimulating environment
  • took the bus and walked home again

And then I frequently worked a dinner shift after that.

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Dear Google

Dear Google, how do you cope with mania? Please don’t tell me to avoid caffeine. I literally haven’t drank soda for weeks, and I still feel like I’m going to pop out of my skin and roll around on the floor like marbles, my pieces clinking together awkwardly and never merging together to form a whole.

Dear Google, telling me to seek a qualified mental health professional isn’t helping right now. I’m already seeing one of those, and she’s not going to come to my house to help me calm down and concentrate on studying so I won’t bomb that test tomorrow. It’s after hours anyway. I need your advice right now.

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